I'm worse than nothing without you...

Long, time, no blogger, tumblr, just bores, me? Tumblr, doesn't allow me to say, how I truly feel..
I need, a LARGE update.

Now, previous posts, you may have read, my so 'depressing' blogs,I can barely over read them, because I think to my self, that was ME? Mortified, by the fact, I was supposedly in love, with a idiot. Now, I realise, long gone, he was not my one, my cause, he was nothing but this insignificant free-be I got for a taster. I have the real thing, now. I know that.

Yes, I found him people, and I'm sure, so sure he's my one. I have, never felt so strong about anything, let alone anyone, I would do anything for this boy. He's charming, he's sweet, he's funny, gorgeous, completely perfect he's everything I looked and asked for, even more, and I have him. Not only, can I trust my life with him, is he, my perfect love, he's my best friend, he's everything to me now. I look forward to each day, I smile each morning, knowing he's now in my life. I can forget, all the shit, everything, just by his smile, he makes it vanish. Now, that, really is something, he may not know, how hard things can get for me, and why I get so paranoid,I guess, I can take my time in proving that.

We don't even have to talk, as long as he's there, everything's perfect.

But, there is just one problem, one but. He has no idea, what would become of me without him. No idea, what will occur if he leaves me, I don't even know, but I know, I wont get over that, it scares me thinking of it- leading to my paranoia. My major flaw, I obsess over little things, and when the conversation dies, I flip, I was almost in tears when you joked about leaving me.. You see, I couldn't handle that, that's why I'm scared for this. But don't care, because now I'm worse than nothing without you, and have you, I don't know, I ring circles inside my head, 'how are you with me?' someone like you and then there's me..:/ I owe you everything, and your'll probably never realise, how much I really do love you.

Josh, I love you. ♥