Because, I need to let it out.

Well,
I just need to type it out, get it out. How I feel. People can get sick of it, the qoutes, the songs, the little 'sweet about nothings' I write. But, I don't. I wont, ever get sick, how can I? I can't ever get sick of him...
This, this is why I don't;

Every pervious boy who I have fallen for, who I have idioticly let myself become inlove with, they left me in such a state it was unbareable. That wasn't because, they broke-up with me, that wasn't because, I felt unloved, it was because what I thought of them, how I thought the world of those ex boyfriends, all in that second, had been crushed. They wern't that guy who told me they loved me in class, held me infront of his friends, they were the guys who shattered me infront of everyone I knew at a party, or left me for my best friend? They became, the guys I dispised, all because I opened up, and it was 'too much' for them to bare... My life, isn't something someone should 'bare' but fuck! I'm the one who has to deal with it? Well, as few know, I was not in a good place for a while,- I didn't want to love again, after all I had one of my 'ex's' still playing me around, all the time, and would crush me just as I would admit it to him... He was what I thought love really was about, he was what I thought my love...

But, I was sorely wrong. My friend, introduced me to a guy, online, she had met him, and she told me this guy would 'suite me perfectly' I didn't want to beleive that. Not after being played around, and fucked up so many times. All I really wanted to do was be happy, and that I was failing in. So, I went with it, I accepted the guy, I spoke to him, and in less than a week, he made me so. unbelievably. happy. I hadn't met him, which sounds bad but, I didn't care, this guy seemed so... Unlike the others, so nice, so heartwarming, but I couldn't judge yet, I had to meet him. And so I did. Almost two months ago from now, I was dreading meeting him but now, well, I wouldn't want anything more to see his face every single moment. Yeah, I sound like a goon when I speek like that, but I can and knowing he accepts me for it? Means the world and more. He's not like the other guys, hes everything, and so much more. I know, I love him, and have never had such a connection with anyone, I can tell him anything he asks without a hesitation. I couldn't do that with anyone else. But the main thing is, I care more about him than anything. I don't care what happens to me now, he saved me, from well, so much... I would do, anything for him, just to make sure he's alright, he comes first, always, and no matter what I have been though, everything I have, all in all, now I don't care. I have him. And I'd go through it all twice as hard, just to be with him.


I wouldn't want it any other way. People can say all they want, but-
more than your'll know, and thats not gonna change. :)
No matter what anyone says. I love you unconditionally and i will forever.