'Because I'm no Superman'...

I did, before love the idea that maybe no one would read my blogs on here, because apparently no one went on. Well, it turns out that conspiracy failed didn't it? (I do love you Freddie, for the kind thoughts) The truth is, why I 'was' feeling bad/low and thought I needed help, is really because I am a sad attention seeking drama queen, who obviously craves all she can get. Bad right? Sometimes I sit up all night, thinking to myself- wow. Every fucking else can deal with it? So why the hell can't you, heyy?

My answer- I'm incredibly weak. I cant defend, let alone stand up for myself! Which is why sometimes, I really need to 'grow up' and 'get a life' and just face it. Life sucks, because if it swallowed there would be nothing left other than a disgusting after taste (me and my sick innuendo's for you xD).

So, I apologize, to you who read my blog before, let alone my others, because I was feeling stupid, and to be honest I don't have a CLUE what was wrong, I just 'felt low', a pathetic reason, clearly.

But I have also decided, I'm giving up bitching for GOOD. I can't do this, slag one person off then walk away with them the next? Its w.r.o.n.g. So it needs to stop.

From here onward, it does me less good than them? So why sink so low?
But saying will achieve nothing, doing will slowly fade, so I will 'try' to become a better person, not a fucking suck up, and a hard nob, but just where I should be, I'll try- 'because I'm no superman'.

Just another one...

No one, none of my friends, that I am awear of, will read this,
No one goes onto blogger anymore, its my safety net.

I need to get help again, its become all to much. :|
But thats all I'm going to write, just encase, because by time if ANYONE sees this, I will have changed my mind completely.

Goodnight and goodbye.